I snapped at my kids last night. Constant jaw pain, not eating, aches bones, dealing with people who underestimate my tenacity, and trying not to grab my face mask every time I see people cough while the news blares warnings about the flu…
I’m standing up to people because of something that’s bigger than what it appears to be.
I tend to stand up a lot.
I’m going to the dentist today and am envisioning hearing that I’m just clenching my jaw and it’s not osteonecrosis from whatever medicine they give me to stop cancer from going to the bones…
Which works because it apparently causes your bones to disintegrate.
Sorry, nothing left here, bones are dead, move along, there’s a nice organ somewhere nearby.
Teachers work hard.
Longer hours than you think.
Then add in a faculty meeting.
I didnt go to sleep with a meditation playing. Instead I found a channel with a preacher quoting the Bible and how much Jesus loves me.
I wanted the word to fill my head as I fell asleep… and woke up…. and fell asleep… and woke up…and fell asleep… and woke up.
The rain and cold are hurting my bones, and I need a vacation somewhere warm where my feet won’t get numb when I put them in the water to pray.
But I ‘ll hug my children this morning and apologize. I’ll go to the meeting and then sing silly songs and teach children how to be superheroes and open their toolbox in their mind and THINK! I’ll come home and catch up on laundry and cleaning and go food shopping and get myself some soups.
But I’m here.
I’m holding on.
Tough times don’t last.
Tough people do.
In Jesus’s name, amen.