I’m up and going to try to head to work today.
Perhaps hitting the ground running isn’t the best way to come back to kindergarten, but instead slowly easing into the routines again.
Review, play, sing, dance and breathe.
I’ve been getting a little better the past two days, and expect by Friday I’ll be as strong as I was when this all started.
That’s the plan anyway.
Yesterday was a relief in so many ways. I once again didn’t realize how much the water was boiling until I hopped out of it, so to speak. I’ve always felt church should be warm, welcoming, and never stressful. Seeing Morgan visibly relax in front of my eyes was amazing. No stress about test grades, no memory work expected, just presence, a sermon summary and welcome arms. Come and learn and love the Lord. Even Quinn, who is notoriously tough to win over, said he was so happy. Maddie was upset that she had to do two hard years to get her confirmation after realizing how different it could have been for her.
The sermon yesterday was about how God gives you what you need, even if you don’t know you need it. That’s what He did here. I never ever would have left without that letter.
In the sermon the three wise men were discussed. They were called the Magi. Almost like magicians. They were probably astrologers and great thinkers more than Kings, and their names weren’t even mentioned until the 600’s. The star they followed could have been a special star, a “God Star” meant for them to follow. The gifts they have were traveling gifts, gifts that a young couple to take with them as they fled a ruler who wanted to kill all young boys.
It’s amazing if you think about it.
They didn’t have internet, or GPS, but they found Jesus by a star in the sky and ancient texts they had read. They followed and everything happened as it was supposed to happen.
Everything is as it should be, which is sometimes so hard.
Why did this chemo overload happen?
I don’t know.
Maybe it destroyed every single cancer cell at once. That’s what I am praying for now.
Maybe it happened at this moment in time because I had the time off from work.
Maybe it happened to me because I have Donnies creams which have helped and can show others how helpful they are.
I don’t know.
All I know is that I am grateful.
Grateful for a church community that welcomed my family.
Grateful for my mom and Aunt and cousins who had our backs when we were put in a horrible situation during a hard time in our lives.
Grateful for this body, which after having been flooded with chemicals for three years, and bombed two weeks ago, continues to get me through the day.
Grateful we salvaged vacation by finding a new place to treat ourselves.
I’ve looked inward at my blessings…. I mean, even when I head to the bathroom I thank my kidneys for still working.
That’s what everyone should do more.
People are unhappy so they look to tear down others. Judge others. Pass condemnation. Gossip.
Instead, how about we give thanks for what we are given. Our own blessings. Think of how we can bless others with our words and actions.
Perhaps you will be used today by God to BE the light. Perhaps you will say or do the exact things someone needs to hear or see, something that will suddenly make everything make sense in their own world.
What kind of messenger are you?
Will you bring words of anger or hate?
Will you bring glad tidings of joy?
Today may we all have a peaceful day of blessings and healing.
In Jesus’s name, amen.